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frustrated

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“Why God? Why me?”
and the thundering voice of God answered, “There’s just something about you that pisses me off”. ”

ps: sorry charmaine. Borrow for awhile.

every little earthquake

[Jan. 4th, 2010|12:11 am]

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every little earthquake

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i feel like heading back to school tmr!the very 1st day!but doubt i can even wake up on time since now am suffering from insomnia!
am gna be dam bored to tears.everyone esle are all gna start school!and i need find a job dam bad!no money no nth!
waking up just to see your missing!you became the first thing on my mind when i was awake!
every little earthquake,every little heartbreak going unheard!

happy new year!2010 (:

[Jan. 1st, 2010|10:00 pm]

bye 2009,hi 2010!its gna be a new and exciting year i cant wait!Poly life!hehe
a change of 2009 -2010 was like nth!no fireworks no nth!only inside mrt.knn
had steamboat at gabgoh house!like first time steamboat for new year!haha
it was just so quiet luh during the 1st second into 2010!headed down to cine at 12 plus!
and stayed there throughout just like christmas!
Happy new year everyone (: although it just seem like just another day passed!but a weird day
and tiffany am soo sorry about last night!but promise next house party will go!have so many things to ask u already!

things to get done by 2010:
1)van (:
2)get job
3)get apparells
4)pursuade parents to get my tattoo
5)save money for my license
6)complete my new year resolutions

Dear Orion (I've big plans we need to work it out, Cmon)

[Dec. 30th, 2009|05:43 am]

[	Current Mood	\|	chipper	]
[	Current Music	\|	Water Dripping From My Aircon :(	]

I am fat and broke. Which makes me the ultimate Un-desirable Human On Earth.
And I cannot swallow that due to a ballooningly ~~Huge Ego~~ and ~~pathetic self-esteem~~ which works in a converse graph to my weight.
So I am drawing out some plans. Well, Basic outlines. I am sure you'd work with me on this.

To lose 5kg :

- need to diet.
- need to live on Veges and Fish ( or sth more healthy )
    or limit Junkies to certain days only.
- need to run and swim ( without turning black =/ okay, maybe it is okay to turn black. As long as its not MY FACE. )

To be financially stable & independant :

- need to get a job
               - buy jellyfish & tank
               - return Yin's money
And then...
- need to buy Prada ( remember that nothing can go wrong w Prada? )
  & Gucci & Dior & Burberry ( psst : Lv's too Auntie )  (sigh all of these I waaaaaantttt. But waaants are not needs. So these, might (might only) change or be moved to the last of the NEED list.)
- need to buy new shades
- need to buy new shoes ( oldies, men's )
- need to buy new jeans ( straight cut, after losing weight if not it'd be a waste of money )

- need to travel. (winks, I know you know what Im thinking rightttt? nudges)

I Just Need A Whole Lot Of Money Because I Have Absolutely High Maintenance. $$$

In order for that to happen.
I must start first off with my Diet Plan because I am growing disgustingly gargantuan.
I am inclined to believe that very soon my mirror will not fit me. Sigh, then that'd really be a pity.

Therefore,
these 2 mentioned calls for immediate attention. Dieting and a Job.
Say Good Luck to Me, ;)

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[Dec. 30th, 2009|12:52 am]

[	Current Mood	\|	anxious	]
[	Current Music	\|	remember the name	]

This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain

i remember where this quote can go??to trainings which i use to dread!but i miss it.
hehe am gna go back school tml.alumni match like a cool!hehe no longer part of school!
can even remember times when can cry during training jialat 1 sia!
need sleep need sleep!

Dear Orion

[Dec. 29th, 2009|03:37 am]

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awake

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I think I could use somebody like you.
Made-believe into everything I ever wanted in a person.

someone like you like how you know, and how you speak.

okay.
but I think I already found someone like that.

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[Dec. 29th, 2009|02:23 am]

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eh eh(nothing esle i can say)

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Fuck,nothing beats having my life now more!seriously i feel so fucked up.
like a damm loser swear.job??no job.aim??no aim.
like a aimless idiot!life's so boring!
all i know now is that i need collect results on 11!nothing esle more i know!
holidays no longer seem like wat it used to be!neither christmas!
sometimes i really do miss having u back in my life!but heyy.move on!
i choose that.i live it!
i guess this place like just for me to rant and rant!where nobody knows anything!hehe (:
but somehow i feel great letting it off!i love my own livejournal!hehe think am gna suffer from depression real soon sia!

Dear ___ ( I still havent gotten a name for you, Hang on there )

[Dec. 27th, 2009|11:49 pm]

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Light Breeze at the Rooftop.

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Have you been driven Maniacal before?
You know, those times where someone would look into your eyes.
and see no bit of humanity left dancing in them.
Just plain Madness?

Yeah.
I think Im close to that.
But dont worry, you'd be the last thing I'd try to murder, before I die of madness myself.

Gran's food were superb as usual.
Cant help feeling the guilt that arises with the clear awareness of doing badly for A's
and disappointing the others. It's a wonder. How everything is consequential.

I repeat, with utmost emphasis.
How everything(everything) is consequential.

Careful there, people, with words. And actions.
Because you'd never know one day if a psychopath will try
to kill you in the most subtle way.

:)

Dear ___ ( I havent gotten a name for you yet... soon! ),

[Dec. 27th, 2009|06:50 am]

[	Current Mood	\|	mellow	]
[	Current Music	\|	My Air con's Breathing	]

can you believe it? I think Potter's getting into my brains.
Thank God I scraped through the last book unharmed & still sane.

I've been sleeping at the weirdest hours lately.
Did I mentioned that Sunrise Tequila shots are pretty awesome?

My little brother keeps scavenging food from the fridge. Queer.
He doesnt seem to grow fat no matter HOW MUCH he eats. Zealous.
Should try to study his DNA and spot the difference from mine. (grumbles)

I have this strong urge to down Nutella.
And strawberries. And cherries. Im not pregnant. This is so odd.

I need a plan to save money.
I realised all I've ever worried about is how to MAKE (enough) money.
Not to actually worry how to go about saving them.
Maybe I need a change of strategy.

I think jellyfishes are theraupetic, you think?

It feels good/bad being in love. Sometimes, you feel neither.

It's not a good thing. It's not a bad thing. It's just a thing. (remember?)

I need to read more books.

Okay. I need to sleep now. It's almost 7.
I hope it doesnt rain. My clothes are hanging outside.

ps: need to get a job. need to repair my laptop. need... I need alot of stuffs.
Nevermind. 'Materials' first. Immaterials later, those are harder.

And to you, whatever it takes alright? whatever it takes, babe.

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[Dec. 26th, 2009|08:03 pm]

Christmas no longer feels like it!every year seems to be getting worse and worse.
fun things no longer seem to be tat fun either!
anyway spend Christmas eve in town!and christmas at haji,seesha and number ball!
its like wat we would usually do!but fun things no longer seem tat fun anymore??
isit because we grow old of things???